Wishes

So today's my birthday! The big 18. Haha. Yesterday was pretty good. I had my class with Justin, lol. Oh, but let's not get ahead of myself. There is also Wednesday to talk about. So Wednesday there was a movie showing for the eco-friendly people by some club I guess. Into the Wild. So Brittany told me that Peter and Corey were going to see it and wanted to know if I would come. I told her I'd go and then asked if I could invite Justin. Of course she said yes because she wants to meet him. So I invited him and he agreed to come, though I'm not sure how reluctantly lol. So I took a shower at 4 after my Psych class and was getting ready to see Justin and meet up with him after his bio lecture when...as I have the hairdryer in my hand pointed at my head, the power goes out. Within seconds, all the girls on the floor are out in the hallway freaking out, and everyone's calling each other. Turns out the power went out all over campus. So of course I'm thinking "Oh darn, I can't dry my hair." So I just finish doing my makeup and hair and leave the dorm. Well when I was almost there, about 20 minutes later at 4:50, Brittany texts me and she tells me that she's at Peter's and Corey's dorm already because of the power going out. So I'm like "Well, okay" So I keep walking there thinking that maybe Justin will have waited for me knowing I was going to meet him there, but I was also afraid to get my hopes up. In any case, I waited there until exactly 5:15. He never showed up so I just gave up and headed over to Peter and Corey's dorm. We just kind of sat there until 5:30 or so when we just decided to head over to the Student Union. The entire way there I must have been so annoying to be around because, obviously, I was disappointed. Both in Justin to be honest, and myself. I can't understand why he just won't give me his cell phone number in case of something like that. But in any case, he hasn't yet and I'm sure he has his reasons. I just hope I can earn his trust soon enough that he'll give it to me. It's so incredibly annoying not being able to reach someone in an instance like that. You never realize how much you appreciate cell phones or even rely on them until something like this happens, lol. Well anyway, we watched the movie which started at 6 so it ended around 8:30. I wasn't feeling too well at this point, just because I didn't feel like pretending to be cheerful in all honesty. I told Brittany that I was just going to head back to the dorm, and when I got there, sure enough at 5:47, Justin had left a comment on my facebook asking when the movie was. I tried to sound as cheerful as I could manage when I told him that it had been at 6 and how I had waited for him, somewhat wanting him to feel guilty. Sure enough he did, and then I felt guilty for almost...feeling as if I manipulated him. Well in any case, I told myself that it was over and done with and I told him that it was just my natural bad luck that the power outage should happen right when we all had something planned. But onto yesterday now. I met up with Justin at Chinese class, and he made no mention of the movie. Obviously it had not been as much of a big deal to him as it was to me, as is natural. Why should he feel any guilt over a simple agreement to see a movie with a group of people he doesn't know? He told me the story of how he had forgotten his muffin and drink in a lounge at the S.U. but had returned half an hour later after realizing that they were gone, to find them untouched in the same place. We talked a little bit about anime and manga until Matt got there and we all talked a little bit. Turns out Matt is in my Psych class so he apologized for having never noticed me. Apparently he thought there was someone who looked remarkably like me in that class, but never realized it was me. Lol. Obviously he had no reason to apologize because it's a class of well over 100 people and I'm pretty quiet and insignificant or unnoticeable in that class. So finally the professor started the movie that he had said he would play so it was dark. I was paying attention to what was going on when I saw Justin moving out of the corner of my eye. I looked over to see him holding his pencil pointed at me or...maybe it was my hood. He immediately took the pencil back and said "Ah darn, you're too alert!" I have no clue what he was trying to do or why, but...I'm choosing to take it as a good sign that he feels comfortable enough with me now that he feels he can pick on me or joke with me or w/e it was he was doing lol. In English class today Jim actually talked to me for the first time. It was strange, but makes me a little more comfortable. I wasn't sure if we were to remain in our separate cliques from high school, but apparently we are allowed to talk lol. He asked me if I knew a few kids from school, and I knew two of the three he listed. He told me that they come down to visit him pretty much every weekend so he never gets any work done. I didn't really know what to say, so I just let him talk, but I'm glad we're on a talking basis now. That's good since we're in the same small group tutorial for English. So now it's officially Friday and I'm 18. Or...I will be at like 9 tonight. But he was the first person to wish me a happy birthday on my actual birthday :) Everyone else had wished me a happy birthday yesterday, obviously not wanting to forget or wanting to get it over with. But he actually waited until after midnight and said happy birthday to me :)